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I'm not the kind of person who anticipates a big party with lots of hoopla. I tend to feel self-conscious and instead of enjoying a large celebration I squirm and fidget inwardly, eager to escape out of the spotlight. When I was a child, my well-intentioned father always brought out the servers performing the big song and dance with everyone in the restaurant turning to watch. Ugh!! It was dreadful for someone like me.
I have made this very clear to my husband over the years so he honored my wishes and took me out for a date night to my favorite restaurant in Chicago, Frontera Grill,
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He also presented me with tickets to one of our absolute favorites--U2!
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Not surprisingly, as I enter a new decade I have been asked by a few people about the topic of being in my 40's. Does it bother me? Do I think about the number?
My honest answer is no! I truly don't devote much time to thinking about the number of my age. If I'm going to reflect, it's usually in the context of seeing where God has led me--the extreme ups and downs and everything in between. I think about where I've come from, what I've learned, and what I'm still striving to do with the life I've been granted. As I mature, I notice the inevitable life changes that come along with increasing years. I can't easily bounce back into shape like I did 15+ years ago, I'm realizing that no amount of moisturizer is going to stop the crows feet from multiplying around my eyes when I smile, gray is creeping into my hair, people gently refer to me as an "older" new mom, and it is not likely that I will be having more children at this juncture of my life. So...that's reality. Here is more reality: I have a relationship with God that never existed this way in years prior, I have a wonderful husband and an adorable son, I have an opportunity to spend extra time home with my son, I have supportive friends in my corner, I get to live right across the street from the beach and a great lakefront path which we use extensively, I go to a church I'm blessed to be part of, and I have the chance to continue my education and keep growing in so many ways.
I was thinking about what I might like to do in the next ten years...possibly...
- Finish my Masters degree
- Work on a second language
- Do more skiing
- Find a niche with serving
- Take a missions trip with my husband--and possibly my son
- Join a cooking club
- Run another marathon
- Grow in my own identity and build confidence in who God has created me to be
- Travel to more national parks
- Learn to sew
- Find more ways to reach out to others
- Plant a garden
My biggest thought about being 40 is that I am GRATEFUL.